#22 inside

22 ogos 2017
It has been 1month since...
Indeed this is not easy, but with Allah help I can still walking regardless of the thought I have previously.
Alhamdulillah. Miracle indeed.
Subhanallah. Hasbunallah wa ni'mal wakil.

Tipu la kalau ckp aku xsedih atau x down langsung. Most of the time when I want to start thinking of future, truthfully, I'm afraid.
But! Hey! Allah is the most generous! If I don't get what I wish, i'm actually walking through Allah's plan.
And Allah is the best planner indeed!

Chin up Shah! Your rezeki is yours. Please don't ever compare it. Please!

I pray that future Shah would be great & shine brighter in her own way..amin :)

#21 July 2017

14 days left for July to pass
Am I able to start working on 1 August 2017? I am not sure for now..but I do hope I could start working by august this year.

Oh Allah, ease everything for me & my family. Murahkanlah rezeki pekerjaan ug terbaik untukku ya Allah..amin.

#20 I'm broke

I'm broke :(

I completed my professional examinations last March, result was out in April & convocation was held in May.

I have been trying here and there seeking for a suitable job but...
Alhamdulillah Allah indeed has a better plan for me & my future that is still a mystery for me. Nevertheless, I am certain that His plan is the best plan for me.

Ya Allah, make me redha ya Allah atas segala ketetapan Dan ketentuanMu kerana sesungguhnya tiada daya upayaku kecualiMu ya Allah..kurniakan lay aku pekerjaan yg terbaik buat diriku, ibubapa Ku, adik-beradikku, Serta umat Islam seluruhnya...amin ya rabbal alamin

#19 Twenty Seventeen

Happy new year!
Have a wonderful year ahead everyone!

Hoping for a better year than before and surely a better me (less bitter...hehehe) !

Alhamdulillah 2017 :D

#18 Is it me?

I'm glad you are just doing fine without me. I wish I could tell you how bad I wanted to talk & chat with you, but I know I'm not welcome to do so.

And so, I decided to respect your decision.

Is it me that you are referring to?
Is it me?

#17 I am hurt

I am hurt.
NO!
I hurt her!
Yes, she was hurt by me. Not the other way round.

I am so sorry that I thought I was the one who hurt by your action.
I am so sorry that I dare to believe that I was the victim.
I am so sorry for the things I was not sure when and where things got wrong & we keep hurting each other without knowing both of us have had enough.
I am sorry to tell you that i wanted to stop this sooner but I could not managed to do so by myself because I was coward. Yeah called me coward and I will accept it.

I hate silence treatment the most & yet I'm practicing it to others as well!
Poor me little girl who cant express myself...
Deep sigh... :(

Hoping for a better day & better relationship.

Forgive me as i need it the most.

#16 Persistence

"Don't give up"
"Dont stop. You are about to finish it."
"Dah separuh jalan dah tu"
"Good luck & all the best!"
"You can do it"
"Normal la repeat tu"
"How u doing? Hard meh?"
....
....
....

So many kind people out there. So many supporters out there.

You are not alone!

Continue walking & u'll somewhat reach the finish line.

It is just a matter of time.

Head up Fizah! InsyaaAllah you can do it!

Fighting!!! :)