shadow of me #1

Tonight would be a sentimental night for me..
Can't sleep coz juz wanna stay longer as i could..
Might be ridiculous but somehow it is my real feeling right now..
Wanna be around, minggle around, chatting around..
But..
I know..
I know we are out of energy bcoz of today paper..
So nevermind..

why would i have this feeling?
we gonna meet again soon insyaAllah..
in September..
or maybe in the middle of it..
who knows..
who knows isn't it..
who knows we might be able to meet sooner than that...or not..

But as you once said to me..
"don't bother to think how scary or how the things would looks like, juz bother of you yourself today. have you improve? have you prepared if you are going to meet Him sooner than that things?"
-that think would remain deep in my heart and whenever i try to figure out the things that beyond our control, i will be looking back and think of what we can do and prepare for that-

- - - - -- - -- - -- - -- - - -- - -- - -- - - -- - - -- - - -- - - - -- - - - -- - - - -- - - -- - - - - -- - - - -- - - - - -

Girls,
Girls that sooo close to me..
I'm going to miss you guys..

Juz, it juz that...
I hope we can together work out for the 'best place' that we dream for..
Protect our deen, protect our good values, be yourself in the way that Allah want us to be..
No matter where we are,where we stand..
Either we can get back together like oldz days or not..
I would be happy to see us being a better person..
I will be happy for that, insyaAllah..

Keep on praying,
Keep on praying that maybe this would be the turning point for some of us if it is not going to be me, myself or you yourself..

Till we meet again ^____^

hello T!!

Hello!

hye!

 i'm officially on T!

thanks seha! 

:)

LET'S GO BACK TO STUDY... HOPEFULLY I CAN. YES, YES I CAN!

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah...

Tahniah, my dear angah!

Allah has granted our wish and definitely your wish. you have to take this opportunity,this challenge actually, seriously and work harder to give back to the ummah insyaAllah.

 I always hope to see one of the docs that are doing the humanitarian works globally, especially in Palestin, is my family members. i do have that wish!

Dear, Allah grants us an opportunity for us to be closer to him. you will know the reason soon.

semoga awak mampu menjadi seseorang yang bukan sahaja merawat jasmani tetapi juga rohani, insyaAllah..amin.

All the best!

The way would not be as easy as we wish BUT it will definitely followed what Allah has planned to us.

May Allah bless us and gather us in the best place in Hereafter, amin..

love you, my angah!

p/s: Being an eldest sister to my lovely fellow sisters and brothers (i'm sorry for not being that 'great' sister to you guys *_*), I do always hope that my younger sisters and brothers would be better than me in whatever ways, whatever mean. whenever i do not get something that i wanted to have, i would pray to Allah to give that chances to my other siblings.

HEROES QUOTE #1

" EVERY PIOUS PERSON HAS HIS OWN PAST, 

AND EVERY SINNER PERSON HAS HIS FUTURE"

l.e.t.s. b.e. a. b.e.t.t.e.r. M.u.s.l.i.m!

Is this an entry?

salam & hai...

Do not know what to write but have many thing to share here...huhuhu ^_^

Again, lets have a list of things that i had done through out this year, in this semester, and definitely in this life.

one of the best moments in my life.. love the scenery so much..subhanallah..

 

Lets check it out!

•  I would say, this was the busiest semester i ever had till now. I know i cannot BUT I do hope next semester, which is going to be after my industrial training, will be nice to me insyaAllah. pray guys pray! hahha
• ohhh yaaaa.. i went to BIG BAD WOLF this year.. hooorayyy!! ^_^
• hmmm...what's next? -___-
• ahaaaa...! i went to stay with seha's family. it was awesome! mingle around with the kids, Jawarians, and others (even not really mingle...hehhe..i'm a shy girl..hhehe). tell you, the food was awesome! like it! guguugu.. i think i'm going to write about this thing soooon.. sooooooon ya (^_^)
• what else??
• exam?? don't want to talk about that.
• one thing, i have to pack all my belongings and bring it home. the problem is, who's gonna help me to throw away some of my things? ahhh headache!

till then lah... ok bye..

is this an entry?

you call this an entry?

hahhahaha..whatever...

H

H for H.U.R.T.

I am hurt.

what is more hurt than hurt? 

hmm...

i do not know what to say.

and the room for saying a things seems like would not be open.

i guess.

hmm..

maybe i made a mistake, or many mistakes to be exact.

but...

hmmm..

what more to say

hmmm..

i am hurt.

forgive me for hurting you more than i am right now.

*____________*

my first baby

alhamdulillah...

i'm going to talk about my first baby. =)

Historically, it was supposed to be a minor event for a yearly event. i was afraid to be a 'mom' for any baby yet because i wasn't know whether i can handle it well or not. i got bad fever the next day after being a 'mom to be' officially. really bad one. with all the supported from my close friends (jazakallahu khairan kathira guys), i set my mind to it! even tough it was not 100% yet.

Somehow, it turn out differently. Yup differently!
I perceived that 'baby' to be something that is so important as it involved corporate body.

Life must go on. i made my mind. i set the date & we meet. first meeting, it was only 5 people there. that was my starting point & i can say i was ready to give my best 100%.

Let me clarify here, 'baby' refer to the first program that i'm handling with all the great people Allah had send to me. 

Frankly speaking, i never dream myself being a 'mom' to a program. my confident level is not that high as what people perceive it to be. but my enthusiasm to not only try new things but give my best , definitely with Allah blessings, have make-up my mind. alhamdulillah.

The preparations were there with all the commitments from our team. most of us are the learners and beginners. but we have tried our best.

As the date was coming to the corner, here came my bad that i'm tried all this while to counter it. i'm easily losing control of my mind when i'm nervous about something. that is the major root cause of my stress and i know you know how stress people looks like isn't it. so figure it out by yourself. weeee =)

THE DAY HAS CAME!

for me personally, the flow of the program is quite smoothly. it would be perfect for me if we are not nervous during the time when corporate representatives were there.

i know definitely my protocol skills are bad. i have to admit this. running away from it would not solve it but i'm yet to think the solutions. huhu..

I want to thank all of the team members. We are complement to each other. Without one of us, we would not be able to make it as what we made today.  

Thanks guys for all your commitments. I'm really appreciate it and i pray to Allah to ease our remaining journeys 'here'.  

May Allah blessed you guys forever and ever. 

InsyaAllah , amin. 

alhamdulillah a'la kulli hal. alhamdulillah.