DAY 1...

23 october 2010 telah berlangsung exam yg pertama-tama bg semester ni...haiya...mnyak awal lorh.. exam start kul 11.00 pg hbs pkul 11.30 pg...aik??? biar botik exam 30 ploh minit ja... yup 30 min only for the CCHS 1012...halaqah 2...huah3... standard la 20 soklan 30 minit... dgn x ngadap apa2 buku except jenazah management and istiqamah dkt internet...buku+nota lgsung x wujud kt rak buku kat blik ...hehehehe...so...xtau la..jawab sebaik mgkin actually selogik mgkin...^_*.. then berserah saja la...
okeh next stop dh x bole buat mcm ni...sbb no more 30 min exam after this...hohohohho..
minimum 2 hours lak pas ni...so...tggu apa lg...pulun jgn x pulun... before next paper, i gonna have quiz ICT & Test 2 Math on da same day...so till meet again....!

gambatee!!
fighty!!
pulun!!

coretan dalam gerimis

gerimis ke??
lebat semacam je...siap tempias2 lg...huhuhu
alhamdulillah..nikmat Allah nk bg...
kan hujan itu pembawa rezeki Allah...apa maksudnya ?

dgn turunnya hujan, pokok2, tanaman2, ternakan2 akan beroleh sumber keperluan mereka yakni air...air jgk sgtlah pntg dlm kehidupan manusia mcm kita...kita boleh hidup tnpa makanan, namun tidak air....apabila keperluan ini dipenuhi, barulah subur & sihat tumbuh-tumbuhan ini...dan sesungguhnya dgn itulah dia dpt membekalkan makanan yg baik utk manusia...kan Allah dh ckp, tdak dijadikan sesuatu itu sia-sia...manusia & alam saling melengkapi & memerlukan...itulah hikmahnya...

kenangan2 lama jga akan subur setiap kali hadirnya hujan...
dulu.....
dikala hujan, bdk kg mcm aku akan bergembira..hlg takot pd guruh, pd jerkahan tok & tok wan...yg ada hanyalah perasaan seronok...sejak mendung lg dh ready nk mandi hujan... dh plan apa nk buat dlm hujan nnt...main bola dlm hujan, main 'aci ligan' tak pkai kasut, ber'kubang' dlm lopak2 air, tgkap ikan yg hanyut dibawa arus ' aloq' a.k.a terusan di tgh sawah & mandi kat 'pancoq' air hujan kt dpn tgga tgh umah tok....

bila dh besaq skit..dh msuk maahad..perasaan malu itu hadir...dh tak boleh main mcm dulu... cuma kdg2 saja dpt lps kan 'gian' nk mndi hujan...itupun hanyalah sekadar mandi hujan keliling rumah smbil lari2 keliling umah dgn adik2...bila ada org lalu dpn umah, akan bersembunyi..
hehehe...pastu setiap kali hujan adik2 akan ajak mndi...aku tau diorg x berpeluang mcm aku dulu sbb hjan skrg dh x bape selamat...dh tercemar..namun mak & tok kata adik2 akan suka kalau aku ada dkt umah sbb diorg akan terlepas dr kna mrh bila aku ada sx...hehehe..bila aku ada kt umah, diorg xkan mnta izin dr mak or tok, sebaliknya aku..sbb klu mntak dr 'mem' besar.. for sure they will not be able to do that...cian diorg tp bgus dgr ckp...huah3....x mcm aku dulu..degil

dah3...x bleh cerita smua...nnt xde secret2 lg dh...hehehe..
=)aku sgt2 lasak msa kecik dulu....kwn2 yg knal aku skrg will not believe if i said about my past..
=) aku hnya sedar bila akak sepupu yg sma2 membesar dgn aku ckp aku dh berubah... msa 2 dalm form 3 lau x slap..
=) manusia berubah isn't it??
=) its ok...juz know who am i now...^_^
=) mak, thank you for forced me that much to be in Maahad...Allah knows the best & my mum as a way to show my right path...alhamdulillah...

what's inside the secret box

Dear buddy,

Kebelakangan ini, terasa mcm di awangan…x tahu punca, x tahu mengapa, x tahu kenapa, x tahu 100x….huargh!!!! SGT TERASA KEKOSONGAN…really sgt2…feel very sad about that…but nothing I can change… feel helpless…whats wrong with me??? I couldn’t find the answer…

Am I being too far from Him?

Rarely jemaah…so hard to do that even me myself in the musolla…astaghfirullah..

Longer time not doing the sujud sajadah, ma’thurat etc…

I miss my hostel time soo much…

There are many things I can do there but couldn’t do that when I’m out…am I hypocrite?? Dunno…

“fake it till u make it!!!!”

But…still couldn’t proceed that…

Juz now, my abah called…rasa mcm ckp tnpa perasaan…slaloonya akan rsa excited borak ngan abah…but juz now…huh….

Before this, I don’t want my parent worried about me..but couldn’t hold anymore..and…juz now, termengadu dkt abah yg rasa mcm spirit hlg….abah diam je…pas2 abah ckp…” dh x lma kak long nk blajar…lg berapa taun ja…” abah juz stop there…and I change our topic…I couldn’t….

Feel like crying but zero tears….

Knowing that I shouldn’t do that things but I do…

Too many works but do nothing…

Must study but doing something else…

Presentations…not prepared anything yet…

Exams…also same..

Aigooo………really in trouble but dunno how to tell others…don’t want to burden others but… slow and slow, I’m going to ruined myself…

YA ALLAH….AMPUNI AQ …

HANAY ENGKAU YG MAHA MENGERTI APA YG AQ RASA..

YA ALLAH PEMILIK HATI INI…

SUCIKANLAH HATI INI YA ALLAH

TERANGILAH HATI INI YA AALAH…

BRING ME CLOSED TO YOU BACK YA Allah…

Tenangkan hati ini ya allah DGN RAHMATMU…

JGN BIARKAN HATI INI TERHANYUT YA ALLAH..

ISILAH HATI INI DGN RAHMATMU…AGAMAMU….

YA ALLAH….

BAWALAH AQ KEMBALI KE ASALNYA…

YA ALLAH ENGKAULAH TMPAT AQ MENGADU..NAMUN AQ MALU DGN KEADAANKU INI…

MEMINTA PADAMU NAMUN….ASTAGHFIRULLAH…

AMPUNI AQ YA ALLAH…AMPUNI AQ YA ALLAH…

HANYA PADA ENGKAU AQ SEMBAH, HANYA PADA ENGKAULAH AQ MOHON PERTOLONGAN….

KUATKAN PEGANGANKU,

KUATKAN HATIKU,

KUATKAN SEMANGATKU,

HINDARILAH AQ DR ANASIR2 JAHAT,

TEGARKAN LANGKAHKU,

PERMUDAHKAN SEGALANYA DGN RAHMATMU DAN KUASAMU YA ALLAH…

BIMBINGLAH AQ…..BIMBINGLAH AQ…

JAYAKANLAH AQ, IBU BAPAKU, AHLI KELUARGAKU, GURU-GURUKU, RAKAN-RAKANKU, SERTA UMAT ISLAM…DI DUNIA & AKHIRAT INSYAALLAH…..

REDHAKAN HATIKU DGN KETENTUANMU…..AMIN YA ALLAH….

p/s=) dh called mak..minta maaf...then feel the relief from this kind of pain...
we wouldn't realised if we are wrong towards them untill this kind of feeling face us!
thank you Allah...Alhamdulillah...
=) 20.10.2010

IIUM CONVOCATION FIESTA - 26th 2010

Bismillah.....

tak pasti nk mula dr mna...hehehe..ok2 lets step backward a little bit.. 1 week before CONVEST, i attend a meeting for sub-com EMSS under biro info utk bncg pasal buletin (i'm late for about 15 minute..rasa teruk sbb slaloonya i'm da one who really hate to be late)..at that time, da committee for Booth Exhibition also had meeting...so i'm in too but i'm not 1 of the committees...

ok lets change our gear...gear 1...broomm2x...
a day b4 CONVEST, Farah (p.i.c) asked me to join them bcause they need 15 members...so i thought it was just for 1 day but...i'm wrong.. cut it, so i join them...having so much pain, laugh, tension, angry, fun & etc which colouring my weekend...

when you see people smile with their scroll, you might want to b like them too 1 fine day, insyaAllah...especially when you see how happy their parents faces...full of smiling, release & proud on that day...but....when it comes to face the way before can achieve that, people normally don't want...hehhehe...

i had great time i thinks...going to STABAZ, Choc Fair, having reflexology etc....

ya Allah ampunkanlah dosa2 kami,
ya Allah berikan kami kekuatan,
ya Allah mudahkanlah jlan kami,
ya Allah terangilah jlan kami,
ya Allah jadikanlah diri kami ini berguna kpd ISLAM,
ya Allah, Engkaulah yg Maha Mengetahui apa yg terselindung d balik tiap2 hati ini...

.....no other gear any more cause i'm only have the license but don't yet drive..hehhehee