#12 Abah

I haven't called Abah yet for this whole week and when I made a called,
"Abah kat rumah. Kaki bengkak dah 3-4  hari. Gout kot.."

Oh my God.
I felt bad. Not knowing it from beginning because I didn't called him like I usually do.
Too occupied with my laziness lately -_-

Abah, I pray for your fast recovery. I pray that you would agreed to mom and go to hospital for further check up.

"Bengkak besaq kepala ecah" -__-

#11 I'm not doing enough

I thought I have given all my best.
I thought I have worked harder.
Reality hit. Deng!
No, I am not doing enough.

I am sad with myself.
I am ashamed of myself.
Yet, nothing much i do since then.

Oh Allah..forgive myself.
Help me being better. I don't want to be a loser at the end of the day.
Guide me through, hold me tight, and lend me Your strength.
Amin.

I want to be better!
I can be better than this!

#10 Am I that weak?

Am I that weak?

Why do I feel like giving up lately?
Few time in just a couple of days..
Oh man..what happened to me?

Am I that weak?

Fail twice, lets get back double!

Fight your MALAS!

Not for others, but for your own good.

My dear, fight this war to the fullest. Show the world what you got. Show them what you can do.

Fighting!!

You are not that weak!

#9 Glasses

I think I need a new glasses.
I think my glasses power has increased, which means my vision is poorer. Sobs!

Oh ya! I forgot to update..
If I got myself a new glasses, this would remarks the third glasses since I left you unattended Shah:

2013-1 (during internship at sg.petani)
2014-1 (lost it, sleepwalking)
2016- most probably 1 (new power)

Hopefully, scholarship coming in early!
I really need a new pair of glasses!
Bye.

#8 Bae wedding

3 April 2016
Bridesmaid on duty yo!
This is my second time being a bridesmaid to my bestfriends. First experienced was in May 2014, Afiqa's wedding.

First time I wore a kurung modern! Haha.. Well, unfashionable is me!
Alright, I would say I love that baju kurung because it is comfortable to wear, not tight but still have the cutting though.
Another good point is, people said I look thinner and taller! Thanks for the magic kurung modern! Hahaha :)

Back to the wedding.
The wedding was so nice despite of super hot weather.
The brides and the grooms (2 couples) were so beautiful and they looks good together!
There were lots of food too!
Many friends attended the wedding.
In one word, "meriah!"

Congrats Jiha and husband. May you both cherish each other till jannah and have a great marriage life ahead!

Overall, another happy day for me!

#7 inappropriate meeting

What an inappropriate timing just happened today..?

I was doing my laundry when suddenly Nasi Lemak invade my mind!
So, why not! Got into my jeans and 'brooomm' to the NL stall! Happy me :)

Then, came in the idea of having nescaffe ice with NL. So..yeah to Keningau then! I parked my motorcycle and about to cross the road. Suddenly a girl stopped me and wanted to chit chat. Alright, sure.

"We are from Nutrious Club. We are here to educate people about health, about having healthy lifestyle."
(Oookkk, my NL were there and she talked about healthy meal..hmmm)

Then she invited me to go to their office for a while. I didn't want to go but she insisted!

Climb up the stairs and I saw a group of people are talking in a circle like 'usrah'. Laughing etc. Oh man! I died!

So straight to the point, I said I wanted to go back as I had to go to somewhere. A receptionist made me registered my attendance then asked me politely to stay just for a while. That girl went to somewhere and out of sudden she brought with her a glass of nutrient water (so called *_*).

I asked her, " are you guys using some kind of product or practice natural way?" Because I could saw most of them were holding variety color of 'nutrious drink'!

She said no right in front of my eyes while holding that 'nutrious drink'!

I hate people lying to me. I pissed off. I excused myself and just walked away!

Huh! What an inappropriate meeting laaaa..haih

#6 Where should I start?

Dear Shah,

I'm writing this to inform you that i'm half way to complete our dream. It has been almost 3 months since this semester begin. I will be taking paper P2 & P3 for this coming June examination.

Honestly, i'm still loss. I'm yet to find the right motivation and the right move. Puzzled!

Lately, I always wanted to start study hard as I could not afford to fail these papers. But I always end up staring at the books and notes without knowing what should I do first. Where should I start? How to do it? Is this the most effective ways of doing it?

However...end up I went to sleep with frustration of not knowing where to start and all I did was nothing! Oh man! Poor me :(

It is not my intention to make you down. I'm just wanted to express it to you and I hope I will do better after this.

I got to meet another lecturer who likes to provoke students to work harder. I thought I got a strict lecturer, somehow Allah gives me another stricter one this week. Huhu. May Allah send him to teach and show us the right way of understanding this subject and guide us to pass this paper. Amin.

Pray for yourself and pray for me too!
We can do it!