HEROES QUOTE #1

" EVERY PIOUS PERSON HAS HIS OWN PAST, 

AND EVERY SINNER PERSON HAS HIS FUTURE"

l.e.t.s. b.e. a. b.e.t.t.e.r. M.u.s.l.i.m!

Is this an entry?

salam & hai...

Do not know what to write but have many thing to share here...huhuhu ^_^

Again, lets have a list of things that i had done through out this year, in this semester, and definitely in this life.

one of the best moments in my life.. love the scenery so much..subhanallah..

 

Lets check it out!

•  I would say, this was the busiest semester i ever had till now. I know i cannot BUT I do hope next semester, which is going to be after my industrial training, will be nice to me insyaAllah. pray guys pray! hahha
• ohhh yaaaa.. i went to BIG BAD WOLF this year.. hooorayyy!! ^_^
• hmmm...what's next? -___-
• ahaaaa...! i went to stay with seha's family. it was awesome! mingle around with the kids, Jawarians, and others (even not really mingle...hehhe..i'm a shy girl..hhehe). tell you, the food was awesome! like it! guguugu.. i think i'm going to write about this thing soooon.. sooooooon ya (^_^)
• what else??
• exam?? don't want to talk about that.
• one thing, i have to pack all my belongings and bring it home. the problem is, who's gonna help me to throw away some of my things? ahhh headache!

till then lah... ok bye..

is this an entry?

you call this an entry?

hahhahaha..whatever...

H

H for H.U.R.T.

I am hurt.

what is more hurt than hurt? 

hmm...

i do not know what to say.

and the room for saying a things seems like would not be open.

i guess.

hmm..

maybe i made a mistake, or many mistakes to be exact.

but...

hmmm..

what more to say

hmmm..

i am hurt.

forgive me for hurting you more than i am right now.

*____________*

my first baby

alhamdulillah...

i'm going to talk about my first baby. =)

Historically, it was supposed to be a minor event for a yearly event. i was afraid to be a 'mom' for any baby yet because i wasn't know whether i can handle it well or not. i got bad fever the next day after being a 'mom to be' officially. really bad one. with all the supported from my close friends (jazakallahu khairan kathira guys), i set my mind to it! even tough it was not 100% yet.

Somehow, it turn out differently. Yup differently!
I perceived that 'baby' to be something that is so important as it involved corporate body.

Life must go on. i made my mind. i set the date & we meet. first meeting, it was only 5 people there. that was my starting point & i can say i was ready to give my best 100%.

Let me clarify here, 'baby' refer to the first program that i'm handling with all the great people Allah had send to me. 

Frankly speaking, i never dream myself being a 'mom' to a program. my confident level is not that high as what people perceive it to be. but my enthusiasm to not only try new things but give my best , definitely with Allah blessings, have make-up my mind. alhamdulillah.

The preparations were there with all the commitments from our team. most of us are the learners and beginners. but we have tried our best.

As the date was coming to the corner, here came my bad that i'm tried all this while to counter it. i'm easily losing control of my mind when i'm nervous about something. that is the major root cause of my stress and i know you know how stress people looks like isn't it. so figure it out by yourself. weeee =)

THE DAY HAS CAME!

for me personally, the flow of the program is quite smoothly. it would be perfect for me if we are not nervous during the time when corporate representatives were there.

i know definitely my protocol skills are bad. i have to admit this. running away from it would not solve it but i'm yet to think the solutions. huhu..

I want to thank all of the team members. We are complement to each other. Without one of us, we would not be able to make it as what we made today.  

Thanks guys for all your commitments. I'm really appreciate it and i pray to Allah to ease our remaining journeys 'here'.  

May Allah blessed you guys forever and ever. 

InsyaAllah , amin. 

alhamdulillah a'la kulli hal. alhamdulillah.

dedikasi utk ANGAH ^_^

Siapa ANAK KE-2 dalam family? meh sini baca fakta ini!!

ANAK MANJA EMAK
sebab apa-apa pun mesti dia akan diutamakan oleh ibu. ^^
(for my angah case...definitely yes! 100%)

ANAK DEGIL
Anak kedua dikatakan lebih degil, keras kepala dan tidak mendengar kata. semua dia aje yg betul. dlm ramai-ramai adik beradik dia aje yg KETEGAQ. kemahuan dia kuat.kalau buat sesuatu sungguh-sungguh. kalau tak nak tu, tak nak lah jawabnya, boleh dipujuk tapi selalunya tak berapa jalan.
(yup, but not 100% la...bukan degil tp determind..kan angah? hehhee jgn lupa belanja)

TAK PANDAI PUJUK
memang anak no 2 ni dia tak pandai pujuk makwe or pakwe dia. (ciannn)
(i dont like 'pakwe makwe'.. but my angah definitely xde skill pujuk-memujuk nih. klau merajuk dgn dia, dia buat xtau je..angah akan ckp dgn muka x bersalah: "lantak p kat ang la nk merajuk ka apa ka")

BERCINTA
dia kalau bercinta, sangat setia.sanggup berkorban.

(X TAU..HER HUSBAND WILL ONLY KNOW IT, INSYAALLAH)

HITAM / PUTIH
Apa yg dikatakan semua dipegang. kalau hitam, hitam lah kalau putih, putih lah. degil tak boleh toleransi.

(yup, my angah is very determind...100% check!)

HATI
Anak no 2 ni juga nampak aje keras. tp hati dia lembut. SATU lagi pe'el dia. dia tak boleh ditegur.

(ye ke? selalunya my angah buat dekk ja.. dia keras hati bertempat)
BERDIKARI
Very independent. memang betul. tp kalau terlebih independent pun payah. mudah bergaul. very take care.

(100% check, she is an independent girl)

ARAHAN
Anak no 2 ni juga dia payah nk terima arahan. dia lebih suka buat hal sendiri pendek kata tak boleh kerja ngan orang.

(not sure...kadang-kadang ya, dia suka buat sendiri tanpa disuruh-suruh)
PEMAAF & CARING
tidak dinafikan anak no 2 ni pun pemaaf dan caring. TAPI awas jangan bagi diorang marah kalau diorang marah faham saje lah.

(pemaaf yes, caring?? dia selalu berlagak cool mcm xdak apa2...caring x tunjuk rasanya..huhu)

PAKAIAN
Nak semua up to date. semua nak kemas.

(mesti up to date, definitely tak...my angah will only wear what she want to and she confident wearing it, up to date or not is not the matter.. kalau kemas, yes definitely!)

new step for you

i'm happy as long as you are happy and Allah bless you, dear.

so, please stay in a way that Allah permits and stay away from the way that deviate from Allah's command.

i'm glad as you choose me to be your advisor, 

to be the first person to meet him, a man that you choose to be with.

i'm afraid, i'm afraid seriously.

because i know this is the important and vital responsible for me.

as you are asking my view, my advise.

dear, even if i can't make it to meet him this time..

insyaAllah, i will pray to Allah to show me either he is the right man for you or not by other means..

i have no idea what the means will be, but Allah definitely know ^_^

currently (even i'm yet to meet him) my heart is at ease.. ^_^

 deeper in my heart i pray that you guys will guard yourselves as what Allah command  until you guys tie the knot later insyaAllah.

at the same time, i can feel the same feeling as what i felt when first time you went out from our 'home'

feeling and thinking of being alone make me sad

*_*

Tak selayaknya begitu!

Jumaat, 5 Okt 2012

Bas berhenti ambil penumpang..ada seorang budak lelaki lengkap berpakaian sekolah menggenggam erat tangan adik perempuannya memasuki bas. kedua-dua beradik itu kelihatan lebih kecil berbanding umur mereka..

Sepanjang berada dalam bas, mataku tidak lepas dari memandang tingkah-laku mereka. Si abang sangat bertanggung-jawab manakala si adik sangat mendengar kata nampaknya. Si abang menyimpan botol air di dalam beg nuri adiknya..

sangat sejuk memandang kedua-duanya sampai terkenang-kenangkan adik-adikku di rumah.adik-adikku selalu saling menyakat sesama sendiri..

Setelah tiba di satu kawasan berdekatan dengan masjid, si adik tadi pon turun dari bas. Barulah aq sedar yang si abang merupakan pelajar sekolah menengah, bukan sekolah rendah. Si abang memandang ke bawah melihat adiknya sehinggalah bas berlalu pergi. mungkinkah mereka saling melambai tangan? itu aq tidak tahu..

Tidak lama selepas itu, bas melewati kawasan sekolah di Mutiara Gombak. si abang pon berdiri di pintu belakang bas sebelum turun. Ketika itu mataku tertancap pada kasut sekolah si abang. MasyaAllah, Subhannallah.. kasut sekolahnya berlubang! berlubang besar! dan nmpak seperti sudah bertahun-tahun tidak berganti. hatiku tersentap. ya, hatiku tersentap! sebak rasa di dalam hati mengenangkan keadaan itu.

Masih ada lagi pelajar sekolah yang terpaksa hidup sebegitu.
tidak ada kah bantuan pakaian, kasut & beg sekolah dari pihak sekolah untuk mereka?
tidak mungkin tiada bantuan.
tidak mungkin tiada guru yang melihat keadaan murid itu.
tidak mungkin mereka hanya memandang tanpa ada yang mahu membantu!

sepasang kasut sekolah buat pemangkin semangat dan keyakinan pelajar itu untuk ke sekolah yang hanya berharga kurang dari RM50, tiada seorang pun yang sudi memberi?
 atau mungkin kah kehidupannya sangat susah hinggakan duit bantuan yang diberikan kepada setiap murid terpaksa digunakan untuk hal-hal yang lebih penting?

sungguh, sungguh itu bukan kasut sekolah layaknya!